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October 27th, 2008back in august, mel and I went home to kentucky to spend our anniversary with family. while we were there, I grabbed a few things from storage, some of which were binders full of negatives from college photo classes I had taken, and a few personal projects I had started but ended up not going anywhere. this past week, I went thumbing through these books and boxes of film, and while I was known as a landscape guy in graduate school, I was surprised to see that over half of my images were self-portraits of one kind or another. I don’t mean the self referencing kind of image where “I’m not in it, but it reflects who I am therefore it is a self portrait” kind of image that my students try to pull when they photograph their friends at a party. I mean that i am the person in the image. most are the acting kind, where I am playing a role for the camera. inspired by cindy sherman stills and such, I play through different scenarios and story lines in my own head, occasionally allowing the camera to record my likeness. these gave way to an avedonian directness with the lens, though I still played a character that is a departure from the reality that is me.
as I began to develop as an artist, I began to reference my own relationship with photography through a self portrait. using one photographic trait/device or another, I have lately been photographing myself directly, not a character I play. two of these images, both on my homepage randomly, were in a group show recently. one of the viewers asked if I had a series of them. I was about to say “no”, when I gave it a second thought and realized, that yes, I do. whenever I get stuck while working on a project, or just bored, I get my cameras and make a self portrait. I try to come up with as clever an idea as I can at the moment, and then I get to work. over time, I have made a lot of them. I get stuck a lot. when I get to the end of my career, I will probably look back at my work and say, “I made a career of photographing myself, with a few other pictures thrown in the mix.”




